Lonely

My mom told me that my brother had a saying. It goes something like this, "I may be alone but I'm not lonely".

I wish that applied to me.

Since coming home from Atlanta I have been on this down turn of motivation and general well being. I'm doing things I just don't like doing and wondering where is my Father through all this.

In short......I'm severely lonely.

Why do I say severe because? ahhh!!!! I don't even want to go there.

Where are my friends? All in Atlanta????

Why don't they seek me out? Do they not need me?

Is it because of my obviously public beliefs?

I don't know............

I need a shoulder sometimes and during those times I never find one or have one.

Where does someone like me find companionship?

I have to get out and start doing the things I have a desire to do and maybe I'll make a friend.

I don't know............

My loneliness is possibly my reasons I over eat. I'm becoming self destructive.......I don't like the road I'm going down.

People say, "change it"!

I wish it was that easy! I wish I could magically change my mind, put in great motivators, and have a great support system around me.

Constantly praying that God will change my mind and circumstances.